I’VE LOST MYSELF
I looked in the mirror
and saw someone who wasn’t me;
I was pale,
my eyes were lifeless,
and my wrists were too frail.
I always concealed while my eyes glistened with tears.
When I glanced in the mirror,
I saw the one you built.
Now that I’ve realized I’ve lost myself,
I can’t locate traces of myself,
I can’t see my smile,
I can’t even see myself,
which I wish I had once sincerely cherished.
The mirror appeared to be familiar:
beautiful, and adorned with shells.
It was amusing to notice
how my own reflection
seemed to reduce its attractiveness.
I see someone you created for yourself,
someone society created for themselves,
but I’m not pleased;
I want to be myself again.
I want to look in the mirror and
see who I was
when I was silly and goofy,
angry and confused,
sweet and compassionate.
I want to gaze in the mirror
and reconnect with myself.
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